oh. right.
Jan 9th, 2012 by lissa
So, I’m alive.
I’ve been rather immersed, finally, in writing other people’s lives, testing out ideas, throwing things at the proverbial walls, seeing what sticks. One day I’ll turn one of the better ideas into a book, like I always said I would.
But burying myself in fictional characters has meant much less of a focus on writing about myself. I’ve pulled away from the real world an awful lot, and almost a year later, people are beginning to pop up and wonder where I am.
I’m still here. I’m just quiet.
Hooping, too, has gone a little by the wayside – dance in general has.
As much as I fought it, I admit that a nasty troll I encountered on Vimeo has done a lot to discourage me from filming my practice, from filming anything and putting it online. I know it’s ridiculous and I hate it, but it was still a bit of a damaging experience for me.
I’ve also felt like I accidentally got too public with my hooping, and I got away from just loving it for the sake of it being amazing. I’m hoping 2012 is the year I find myself again as a hoopdancer, but I think it will require a certain amount of introversion.
The discovery that I have a gluten intolerance that chose this year to spiral wildly out of control, well, that did not help at all. Coming to terms with a radical diet adjustment has…been difficult. Sometimes impossible.
And it has sucked the energy out of me.
But, you know, I don’t know! New year, new stuff. I’ll be 35 in a few weeks, that’s weird. I still have three cats and I’ve developed a new fascination with “Grey’s Anatomy”. I took up the autoharp, halfassedly. Sometimes I even manage to clean my kitchen.
But mostly, I’m alive and I keep landing on both feet and walking forward.
